New Blog.

It's summer.  There's not much to do.  I applied for ten different jobs, and they're all taking they're sweet time looking over/rejecting my application.  So while I wait for my summer to get busy I'm going to write a blog.  Kinda like a diary.  But more unisexual.  Seriously, through this blog I can hopefully improve the way I write, think, and express myself.   For those of you that understand Japanese, you can also follow http://ameblo.jp/timewasted.  Or you can just translate it on Google.  But then I wouldn't get a fair chance at sounding smart.

May be writing will help me find a deeper and more contemplative side of me.  I think I was too obnoxious during college.  I made too many over-the-line remarks and acted without common sense.  Frankly, I thought I was being funny and creating fun.  But coming back home to a more relaxed, controlled environment, I FINALLY realized that instead of maturing at college, like a normal person, I was reversing the process.  I'm an idiot.

So over the summer, I'm going to calm down.  I'm going to give myself time to think about all kinds of problems going on around me and within me.  I want to develop a strong sense of my beliefs and my ideals.

Why all of a sudden?  I guess as I approach adulthood, I want to make sure that I can be a "mature" adult.  Not necessarily limited to maturity in character but also applied to the way I think.  The environment I live in will less and less be a place where ideas are given with guidance.  I'm going to need a set basis for my actions and thoughts.

Don't get me wrong, I still think spontaneity and childishness can create fun.  But I'm not gonna stay an idiot who's constantly joking around.  I'll change, but I won't change what defines me.